Assessment of things to do for 2011

So far, what has happened? Of the ten things I have listed to accomplish this year, where am I standing now?

When it comes to my first goal, I think I still have a long, long way to go. Although I will admit that I feel disappointed, I think God has still many things to fix in me that is why I am still here. In connection to this and my number four goal which is to break out from employment, I was successful in resigning last June. For about 6 months now, I have become full time with FrontRow. Although still, those 6 months did not give me the income that I desired. Actually, I am facing a crucial time now. I have exhausted almost all of my savings already. I am slowly losing “panggalaw”. Although in comparison last year, I am more blessed and grateful to have a better group this time around. I never thought that I would be able to endure 6 months without a regular source of income. I really would have to thank my discipline and determination because I think, if this happened to other people, I don’t know what they have done. But now that I am facing a major crossroad, I am giving this month a last blow. This is really my “make or break” stage. If I make it, then I will not look for a job. But if worse comes to worst, I may have to look for a sideline to have “panggalaw”.  God, please don’t let what my mom said come true. Jesus, I really need you now.

If I have anything to be proud of this year, that would probably be me being more unselfish. This year saw me more giving to my family and my group. In my own little ways, I was able to shift my focus to them and their needs and wants. That is very hard for me to do but thank God, I was able to do it. Perhaps, that’s the more mature side of me taking place. Parang ayoko na nga magparty and magtravel nang ako lang mag-isa. This time, I am not thinking of myself alone. I have people around me who also depend on me. These people need me as much as I need them. In my own little ways, I believe I was able to help. Hopefully, next year, mas marami pa akong matulungan.

If there’s one thing that I miss naman from last year, it would be the fine dining and shopping. I honestly feel the sacrifice that stripped me of these luxuries. Hopefully next year maibalik and mas dumami pa. I missed eating a lot and buying a lot. (to be continued…)